For some reason, every time I start feeling as though I have pretty much solved my eating issues, I find out that I am still vulnerable to the old lies. . . that food will make me feel better, that I can indulge myself just this once without jeopardizing all of the progress I have made.
I had a super day yesterday, both food- and exercise-wise, but I also was absolutely terrified that my recent sloppiness may have endangered my health. I had to come to terms with the fact that every time I make a risky decision, I make it more likely that I get some dreadful disease and spend the rest of my days in a nursing home instead of traveling and doing some of the exciting things I've never had time for before.
Is the doughnut really worth the risk???
I've had some weird symptoms lately, primarily tingling and numbness in the hands and feet. Yesterday I googled the symptoms and was dismayed to find that this is symptomatic of diabetes (I am diagnosed pre-diabetic and NOT looking forward to getting the full-blown version), carpal tunnel syndrome, and even—gulp—multiple sclerosis!
When you get to my age—52—you do start wondering how long it will be before you get some dreaded disease. The days of feeling invulnerable are long gone. It was a huge wake-up call. Time to get my act together and start behaving like a responsible adult instead of the spoiled child who wants what she wants when she wants it and doesn't care about the consequences.
The thing is. . . I have faced this situation over and over again in the past three years. Just look at my health web site! I have been told often that my web site helped others come to terms with themselves. . . I guess I need to read it myself on a regular basis!
I am hoping that blogging on a regular basis will help keep me accountable, so I created this account. If it helps someone else as well, so much the better.
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