Recognizing self-sabotage

It feels like I am constantly learning the same lessons over and over. I know I have written about this before, but I guess it hasn't sunk in deep enough. Or I am just really good at self-deception.

For some reason, I keep thinking I can allow myself to have a treat now and then—like a Dove ice cream—without jeopardizing my progress. I exercise a lot, and if I've had a couple of good days food-wise, I start thinking I've "earned" a treat. Of course, I conveniently forget that I do have some non-Core food every day, such as my café français and sometimes a little light butter and/or a packet or two of sugar.

But after I had a Dove ice cream on Saturday, I let it throw me off-track for the entire day. I made a Core pizza and ate the whole thing. (It wasn't all that good. . . I figured it would be worse leftover and I didn't want to throw it out.) Then I felt even more guilty and made some peanut butter toast.

I thought I'd get back on track on Sunday, but I felt even worse. I felt like a fat slob and didn't exercise at all. None of my Core foods looked appetizing, and I spent the day pretty much feeling sorry for myself because I couldn't have more "forbidden" foods.

Monday was better, but not great. Then Tuesday I had a retirement seminar to go to and lazed around in the morning and got NO exercise at all. Food-wise, I did fine, but Wednesday I made sure to get in both exercise routines and was definitely back on track with my eating. I even made a salad (after being off salads for the past 15 months or so) and really enjoyed it!

So thankfully, I am back on track and feeling much more in control of myself again, but I definitely want to remember this experience.

One "treat" threw me off for 3-4 days!

It’s one thing to eat a little off-Core away from home (sometimes there is no alternative), but to actually sabotage myself when I am home and not exposed to constant temptation. . . that’s just ridiculous.